15 April,

Have my hair do with Maggie Mee & Ah Niu at tampines.

Maggie mee went to dye her hair, as for me doing rebornding & colour :)

Ah niu sit there & wait for her. Poor things is, she wait for us about 2 to 3 hours like that.

16 April,

stuck at home, feeling rather moodless to do anything. Just watch "They Kiss Again"

super addict with this Drama.

Joe rocks :)

17 April,

stuck at home & keep re-watching ISWAK.

I know i kind of lame, but because i do really love this drama. So i keep repeating few times.

18 April,

Went to Polyclinic for Tiffany Hearing test.

Nurse says, she very alert. Good in hearing.

19 April,

Stuck at home.

20 April,

Went to whitesands with my mom.

21 April,

Stuck at home.

Today,
Stuck at home again. Please see! How many days i have been staying at home.
Just don't know why, really restless to go any where.
Have been quarrelling with hubby for fews days.

I don't feel like seeing him or talked to him. Can say i treat him super cold.
We didn't really talks for one week or even kissed or hug.
I was trying hard to avoid him, he asked me why ?
I could only answer : i don't know.

What's in my mind ?
alot of things, which i don't even know how to start.
I have been keeping things in my mind for whole week. I didn't tell him because i know he won't be understand.

I feels that he's still had a kiddo mindset. He won't be understand what i want or we just not suitable.
He has been controlling my freedom till i feel i do not have any breathing space.
Do i deserve all this thingy ?

I want to move forward, & be someone better. I don't want forever stuck here as a house wife not house wife, Maid not maid.
I wants to upgrade myself!
I seriously want learn some skills improve myself.

I have been thinking, what i actually wants to be ? what i actually interested ?
I want to migrate to Taiwan, but what i can do from there ?

Be a POP Star in Taiwan ?
If that's a chance i also want. But who will actually "notice " a girl like me ?
as they can find some much more pretty girls.
Make Up artise ? Hairs stylist ? Photographer ?
Which one i interested in ?

My Planning Is,
I had to get a full-time jobs with CPF
Open a bank account, save my 20% of my salary in this account.
Get a "N" level cert.
If i got my "N" level, than i shall start taking course that i really interested.
Lastly, when everythings settle down, maybe start my migrate thingy?

I promise , i won't be using his money anymore. I want "KAO" myself to succes.
Because i know my feelings for him. That's no rights for me to spend his money.
Even we're hushband & wife, but i'm not type of girl who loves to cheat on people money.
Last Words i can say : Im So Sorry. Feelings can't be force.

Stop here, nights everyone :)
& lastly ISWAK ROCKS.