I don't sleep well last night,
forget it. I don't want to mention anymore :(
If not, there's many problem coming in again. I hope he won't be reading my previous entry.

Because i don't know what is he gotta do next. Maybe i shall say i'm super disappoint with him.
I only know in the end he says : If u don't want me to leave than say. I CAN FORGIVE YOU.
I got abit pissed with this sentence, because i didn't do anything wrong.

Suppose forgive is i say & not him isn't it ? But why don't he just apologise to me instead ?
If he wants to leave, let him be.
I won't be stopping him, because no point for me to do so.

I always remember, the part he push me so hard i could feel i almost falling.
I always remember he stare at me with his evil eyes, & i could feel he's trying to control his temper & not hurting me another time.
I could feel, if i stay there abit longer he would actually slap me.
I could feel, he wants to whack me hard & vent his anger on me.
& again i could feel, he wants to leave yet he still can't let go of me.

He ever says before,
no matter what i had done wrong, he would never lays hands on me.
NO, he's lying. None of his words is truth, not at all.

Yes, i hate him.
i hate him so much i could feel i want to kill him.
i coulden't forgive him, because whenever i think of him, will remind me of how he mess up my life.
How he ruined my future. How he stare at me. How he push me. How he actually shouted at me. How he hurt me with his fucking brainless words.

That's no way can make me forget everything.
what u had done always in my mind, i want to jump down from my house & i wants to die right infront of you.
I want you to regret for ur whole life time.

My mind telling me, yes i should die & leave this horrible & reality world.
i shall go some other places much more better than this.
If i were to die, i will take Tiffany with me. Than we can live happily & peaceful life.